How it hasn’t worked

February 2010:

1. Began TTC
2. Naively thought it would work the first time; it didn’t.

January 2011: Met with ob/gyn to discuss fertility

February 2011:

1. Reviewed CD21 blood test
2. Prescribed Femara for annovulatory cycles (yay–thought I was finally “fixed”–I wasn’t)

March 2011:

1. Reviewed CD21–Femara worked!!
2. Urged to keep trying and do another CD21 test

April 2011: Reviewed CD 21 blood test–ovulated, but no BFP

May 2011: Reviewed CD 21 blood test-ovulated, but no BFP

June 2011: 

1. DH has semen analysis: all is well
2. Reviewed CD 21 blood test–ovulated, but no BFP
3. Stopped taking Femara and ordered HSG
4. Had HSG and finally appreciated the phrase “What doesn’t kill you will only make you stronger”

July 2011: Started back on Femara with the hopes that HSG cleared any blockage; no BFP

August 2011: Continued Femara, no BFP

September 2011: (after Femara and no BFP)

1. Let go of my fears and visited RE who seemed encouraging
2. CD 12 ultrasound to check for follicles
3.  Found follicles and a small cyst (Guess Femara took its toll)
4. Took trigger shot and prepared myself for IUI (yeah, baby!!)
5. IUI cancelled two days later (DEVASTATING DAY; Do Not Ask)
6. Re-checked DH’s semen/sperm; all is well

October 2011: (after Femara and no BFP)

1. Subjected myself to CD1 ultrasound–Cyst is bigger!!! Must wait and see what happens.  No Femara!
2. Breakthrough Bleeding Mid-Cycle (Freaked Out!!  Nurse says it is because of cyst!)
3. BB bleeding stops after a few days, but no period in sight

November 2011: Waiting for AF to arrive or cyst to go away (ALWAYS, ALWAYS waiting)

December 2011:

1. Cyst gone!  IUI scheduled
2. IUI performed; thrilled to finally get to this stage!
3. BFN!
4. Break from TTC (only because I have no access to RE and meds) and “relaxing on vacation”
5. Recovering from relaxing on vacation and wondering why I went on vacation in first place

January 2012: Scrapping together money and waiting for a miracle

February 2012: IUI #2 plus injectables–BFN!

March 2012: Just trying to make it through each day

April 2012: FSH, Estradiol, and AMH all tested–normal!!

May 2012: IUI #3 plus injectables-BFN!